Thankfully, this past week, I had listened to a Deepak Chopra show on PBS about the spiritual laws of the universe. (I keep the screen off on the TV and listen to the sound while I work. While I don’t agree with everything he says, I love to consider all different points of view.) I remember him saying that everything happens as it is supposed to and that we are to only live in the present–not carrying anything from the past or expecting anything from the future. “Food for thought, ” I thought as I mulled it over. His three or four hour lecture was fresh in my mind.
I have been working all week on a project that was over 400 pages and needed to be Fed Ex’d PDQ. I kept reading it and reworking it–about eight times–to cut out any repetitive sentences, thoughts, or even paragraphs and got it down to 265 pages. That would cut down on the copying charges, the weight of the Fed Ex and the time that someone else’s tired eyes is going to have to read it!
With three hours to spare, it was time to leave to copy it and send it out. Four of six doctors had responded with letters that I needed and records to support what I was writing about. The others I asked couldn’t do them until next week but I really needed to get this in today–or so I thought. (I told Someone to get dressed and to get in the car at least a few hours in advance. I took five to actually get him sitting in a seat.) “Oh,” I said, “I need a credit card.” The machines are now automated. You can’t just pay cash at the counter after making copies. “I’ll get it,” Someone said. “Great. Then, let’s go,” I said.
We drove there and I got everything set across the counter, Exhibit by Exhibit, to copy. Someone kept putting the card in the “reader” and it kept coming back. “I don’t know why it keeps rejecting the card.” “Let me see it, ” I said. It was the correct bank card. Then Someone said, “It is a 2018 card. The new one doesn’t come until the summer so it should work.” Oh.
My Someone has Lewy Body Dementia. It is not a disease with a steady decline so you kind of know what to expect day to day. LBD changes hour by hour, day to day. While physically weaker, some times, Someone is “himself.” Other times, there are clear signs that something is wrong–some things I will not talk about until he is no longer with us. I don’t want him to lose his dignity but know that no one could ever prepare for this disease. It is a mind-bender.
Well, we took the document and the card and headed home. There is nothing you can say in this situation other than, “Well, I’ll get the right card and we’ll come back tomorrow.” Now, I know I need to watch for another level of impairment. I know I would have destroyed the old card and double-checked it before I left to go out. How he found an old card I will never know.
On the way home, headed for McDonald’s for doggie burgers, Deepak Chopra’s voice was telling me that everything is as it is supposed to be. Let nothing upset you. Expect nothing. Thankfully, I don’t get upset easily so other than a little extra stomach acid rumbling around, it doesn’t matter.
“Tomorrow is another day,” my mother used to always remind me. Maybe there is something I forgot to include. Maybe one of the doctor’s who didn’t get included will send their letter earlier than next week. Maybe maybe maybe.
It will take a couple of hours now to feed the dogs who won’t eat dog food or can’t eat dog food but not having the burgers, would mean I’d be up all night into the morning. Taking care of special needs dogs is so outside the normal “pet,” or even fostering, experience. They feel like eating–or drinking–one day and then not the next. I have to have all types of things available for them to eat–sometimes, they only want my cheese sandwich or my cheese pizza–then I have a juice box for dinner!
When you get frustrated, just remember to stay in the moment. Things are going the way they are supposed to. Let go and just go with what is happening. (I sure pray lots of prayers, most that I learned way back when and read prayer cards for reinforcement and at the same time, too, as I’ve been told, to praise–say, “Thank You,” for all things, even those that haven’t happened yet instead of begging for things yet to come–or not. Even the hard things, the things you wish weren’t, the things you are glad about. All things.
“Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.” 1 Thessalonians 5:18 (NIV)
IF you want to help me continue my “mission” caring for special needs animals, and there are lots of them at the Rescue Ranch, please help in any way you can. Thank you!